Thursday, September 30, 2004

朋友

什么是朋友? 谁是朋友? 怎样才算是朋友?
见面时说声嗨的人是朋友?一起吃饭玩乐的人是朋友?与你一起分享烦恼的人才是朋友?
我想,每个人都有不同的定义。
谁算是你的朋友、谁是你的朋友、谁是你真正的朋友,完全由你来认定,你有完全的主权,旁人不能左右你。
如你是我的朋友,你是住在我的心里、脑里。
如你是我的朋友,我会不时想到你。最坏的情况是我偶尔才会想到你。
可能,我们好久没联络了,但你的样子、名字还是住在我的心房里,那一席位还是属於你的。
我不会用好听的话语让你听到你是我的朋友。
我只想把我的诚意付诸于行动。
我不需要别人来提醒你是我的朋友。
朋友是住在心里、脑里,不是被挂在嘴边的。
多出的注解只会把它模糊了,令它变成不真实了。

~木目心~

Wednesday, September 29, 2004

他吸引了我。
他是高傲的。
他是出色的。
他在茫茫之中,吸引了我的目光。
经过几番的挣扎、考虑,我采取了主动。
我们在一起了。
他就是那么的特别。
他总是深深的、牢牢的牵着我的目光。
当我的目光落在他身上后,我会不舍离开他,即使是一秒。
当我需要他在我身边时,他会在我身边。
当我需要宁静时,他会静静的、默默的看着我,无声胜有声。
他总是能给我清新的感觉。
当我为作业而烦恼时,他能帮我松弛紧绷的神经,让我有能量继续下去。
我想每天见到他,对他说声早,给他一个微笑,一个吻,一个拥抱,感受属於他的气味。
我希望他能每天陪在我身边。
我想一直拥有他。
但,我知道我不能。
他是那么的高傲,那么的难得。
我又怎会有那福分可以无时无刻拥有他?
为什么?
没有什么一万个为什么。
那只是因为。。。
因为。。。
我没钱。
没钱的我是不能一直拥有他的。
虽然是有点现实,但这世界就是如此。
人生也是如此。
你以为他--郁金香便宜?可以随手可得?
我的郁金香啊,我们下一次的相聚会是何时?
我会一直想念他的。

~木目心~

The grass field

I believe many people have read this article before. Yet, I would like to share this with you once again.
Once upon a time, there was a teacher and his student lying down under a big tree near a big grass area. Then, suddenly, the student asked the teacher,
Student: Teacher, I'm confused, how can we find our soul-mate? Could you please help me? Teacher: (Silent for few second, than he answered) Well, it's a pretty hard and easy question. Student: (Thinking hard) Huh???
Teacher: Look on that way, there are a lot of grass there, why don't you walk there but please never walk backward, just walk straight ahead. On your way, try to find a beautiful grass and pick it up then give it to me. But just one.
Student: Well, ok then... wait for me... (walked straight ahead to the grass field).
A few minutes later...
Student: I'm back.
Teacher: Em, well I don't see any beautiful grass on your hand. Student: On my journey, I found few beautiful grass, but I thought that I would find a better one, so I didn't pick it up. But I didn't realize that I'm at the end of the field, and I hadn't picked up any. Because you told me not to go back, so I didn't go back.
Teacher: That's what happened in real life.
What is the message of this story?
* Grass - is people around you
* Beautiful Grass - is people that attract you
* Grass Field - is time
* In looking for your soulmate, please don't always compare and hope that there will be a better one. By doing that, you'll waste your lifetime, cause remember "Time Never Goes Back". It applies the same in finding your ideal life partner, your suitable career or business, therefore the morale is LOVE & grab hold of the opportunity that you have now, don't waste time!
~There Can Be Only One~
Have you picked any grass that you like? Is it still in your hand? I am still wandering... I like wandering... Hehe... That's why I like this article.

Apple Tree

A long time ago, there was a huge Apple Tree.......... A little boy loved to come and play around it everyday. He climbed to the tree top, ate the apples, took a nap under the shadow... He loved the tree and the tree loved to play with him. Time went by... the little boy had grown up and he no longer played around the tree everyday.
One day, the boy came back to the tree and he looked sad. Come and play with me, the tree asked the boy. I am no longer a kid, I don't play around trees anymore. The boy replied, I want toys. I need money to buy them. Sorry, but I don't have money... but you can pick all my apples and sell them. So, you will have money. The boy was so excited. He grabbed all the apples on the tree and left happily. The boy never came back after he picked the apples. The tree was sad.
One day, the boy returned and the tree was so excited. Come and play with me, the tree said. I don't have time to play. I have to work for my family. We need a house for shelter. Can you help me? Sorry, but I don't have a house. But you can chop off my branches to build your house. So the boy cut all the branches of the tree and left happily. The tree was glad to see him happy but the boy never came back since then. The tree was again lonely and sad.
One hot summer day, the boy returned and the tree as delighted. Come and play with me, the tree said. I am sad and getting old. I want to go sailing to relax myself. Can you give me a boat?Use my trunk to build your boat. You can sail far away and be happy. So the boy cut the tree truck to make a boat. He went sailing and never showed up for a long time.
Finally, the boy returned after he left for so many years. Sorry, my boy. But I don't have anything for you anymore. No more apples for you, the tree said. I don't have teeth to bite, the boy replied. No more trunk for you to climb on. I am too old for that now, the boy said. I really can't give you anything ... the only thing left is my dying roots, the tree said with tears. I don't need much now, just a place to rest. I am tired after all these years. The boy replied. Good! Old tree roots is the best place to lean on and rest. Come, Come sit down with me and rest. The boy sat down and the tree was glad and smiled with tears.......
This is a story of everyone. The tree is our parent. When we were young, we loved to play with Mom and Dad. When we grow up, we leave them... only come to them when we need something or when we are in trouble. No matter what, parents will always be there and give everything they could to make you happy. You may think the boy is cruel to the tree but that's how all of us are treating our parent.
~Copied from a forwarded mail~
What's in your mind now? Don't delay till the tree no longer standing there...

Dog's Life

A butcher watching over his shop is really surprised when he sees a dog coming inside the shop. He shoos him away. But later, the dog is back again. So, he goes over to the dog and notices it has a note in its mouth. He takes the note and it reads "Can I have 12 sausages and a leg of lamb, please". The dog has money in its mouth, as well. The butcher looks inside and there is a ten dollar note there. So he takes the money and puts the sausages and lamb in a bag, placing it in the dog's mouth. The butcher is so impressed, and since it's about closing time, he decides to shut the shop and follow the dog. So off he goes.
The dog is walking down the street, when it comes to a level crossing; the dog puts down the bag, jumps up and presses the button. Then it waits patiently, bag in mouth, for the lights to turn. They do, and it walks across the road, with the butcher following him all the way. The dog then comes to a bus stop, and starts looking at the timetable. The butcher is in awe as the dog stops a bus by pulling its left leg up and gets in it. The butcher follows the dog into the bus. Then the dog shows a ticket which is tied to its belt to the bus conductor. The butcher is nearly fainting at this sight, so are the other passengers in the bus. The dog then sits near the driver's seat looking outside waiting for the bus stop to come. As soon as the stop is in sight, the dog stands and wags its tail to inform the conductor. Then, without waiting for the bus to stop completely, it jumps out of the bus and runs to a house very close to the stop. It opens the big iron gate and rushes inside towards the door. As it approaches the wooden door, the dog suddenly changes its mind and heads towards the garden. It goes to the window, and beats its head against it several times, walks back, jumps off, and waits at the door. The butcher watches as a big guy opens the door, and starts abusing the dog, kicking him and punching him, and swearing at him. The butcher surprised with this, runs up, and stops the guy. "What in heaven's name are you doing? The dog is a genius. He could be on TV, for the life of me!", ..............to which the guy responds: "You call this clever? This is the second time this week that this stupid dog's forgotten his key."
Moral of the story.....
You may continue to exceed onlooker's expectations but shall always fall short of the boss' expectations. It's dog's life after all.....
~Copied from a forwarded mail~
Hehe... Did you spot the ending of the story? For me, it's totally out of my expectations. It touches the ground we are standing now, do you agree?

Saturday, September 25, 2004

Tulip Festival

Today was a sunny day. After a year of waiting, I went to the tulip festival in Dandenong Range at last. It was incredibly pretty. I was so enjoy running here and there to take heaps of photos. In fact, I gained half inch height during my stay in the farm. Why? It was because of the mug that sticked to my shoes. I could sense that my feet were half kilo heavier and I could hardly get rid of them. ^^
There is a say, 90 per cent of girls like tulips. Do you like tulips? Why do tulips have such charm that can attract girls attention? Is it because it's rare in Asian countries and it's expensive? Or because of its name in chinese? For me, I like tulips is because of its chinese name and its colours. As an ordinary girl, I like any flower but I don't quite like roses. Don't ask me why. I just don't quite like them among the others. In contradiction, the flowers that I used to receive from my past relationship were roses, red roses. Yes, I like red but not red roses. Yet, I will not resist white and blue roses after all. Girls are unpredictable!! Haha... Ohh yes. I will never forget my beloved sunflowers and daisy.

Friday, September 24, 2004

Don't compare

Do you like to be compared with other people? I don't like to be compared but I like competition. Competition give me motivation. Yet, there is something that you cannot compare and we shouldn't compare. What's the 'something' then? There are like talents, facial features, body sizes, love and etc. There are people always complain why he or she doesn't have the talent that other people have. Why does she look so outstanding but I am just a common girl? Why can't you act like him or her? I wondered what's the point to have such kind of comparison? Do we get anything out from there? Nothing. If you think you don't have the talent, I would suggest you to work harder and put more efforts to achieve the target. If you really couldn't make it after you have tried, perhaps you should spend some time to find out where your strengths should located to. I believe that every people have their strengths and weaknesses. If you wondered why he or she couldn't act like other people, I suggest you should spend some time to find out his or her uniqueness and accept him or her as a whole if you really appreciate him or her. Don't only compare and complain and do nothing to find out a solution or a better way to see the world.
A cup has a broken edge though, it still looks perfect if you see it from another angle.

Wednesday, September 22, 2004

大石与巴士

一对恋人乘坐一辆巴士进入山区。只有他们在中途下车。他们下车后,巴士继续往前驶。巴士继续行驶途中,一块大石从高处坠下并将巴士压得粉碎。所有乘客无一生还。那对恋人看到这件 事说:‘如果我们都在那辆巴士就好了!’ 一般人都会想说:‘还好我们刚好下车了!’ 但他们却说了不同于一般人的话。你认为他们为什么会这样? 先想想再往下找答案。

如果他们都留在车上没有下车,那辆巴士将会因他们没有下车而赶在大石坠下前驶过出事地点。

在我们生活中,多尝试以不同的角度来正面思考及多找机会去帮助他人,别再不知不觉中一昧自私的为自己活着了。

你答对了吗? 若你答对了,那我眼光真好,有你这个朋友。若你答错了,恭喜你跟我一样,经由这篇文章长了一智。
-摘自网上邮件-

Remote control

Everyone has their own remote control. It controls his or her thoughts, behaviours, attitudes and everything of him or her. When a couple say something like 'I give you my remote control', I suppose that is the sweetest words a couple could have. It means he or she is willing to fully commit to the person he or she loves. Do you have your own remote control in hand? Do you want to give out your remote control to someone else?

I read an article before. People always complain that they don't feel happy because someone has done something. He or she cannot get something because of someone. In that case, can I say that he or she has passed the remote control to other people? They are letting other people to control them? Do you want your happiness to be controled by other people?

Tuesday, September 21, 2004

Shame of myself

Arrgghhh... I really feel ashamed of myself!!! I have done NOTHING for my assignment for the past few days. The due date is getting close but I still lazy around here. I kept setting a date line for myself to finish the assignment but I never achieve that. I notice that when I put more pressure on myself, I feel more reluctant to act on it. Am I getting out of my mind lately? I really don't feel like working on the assignment. What I want to do is to sleep whenever I want and any longer I want. Is that a syndrome of depression? @_@ I don't like and don't want to see myself to be like that. This is so not me... I feel disgrace to this me...

Year 2004

Year 2004... How are you doing with the year? Is it a wonderful year to you? For me, it's a mix of wonder and tragedy. It's not the end of the year though, I have something to say about it.
The wonderful thing about the year is I met many unique and special persons. I really glad to have them in my life. The tragic thing is that I have disappointed a few people. I really hate to say NO to people especially to those that really try and work hard to treat me good and appreciate me. Guys, really thank you for the appreciations. I really want to treasure you all as friends. I am doing my best to maintain the friendship. I am really sorry that I cannot take it more than that or over the line. I am the kind of person that ONLY suitable to keep as a friend, believe me. Don't risk yourself to step over the line. It's real DANGER!
'The greatest thing in the world is to love and be loved in returns.' It said by Ewan McGreggor in Moulin Rouge. I really love the movie and I agree with him. But I believe I am not ready to love and to be loved at this stage. I just not ready to have the greatest thing in my hand. Let us just have friendships in our hand, okay?
Cheers~

Sunday, September 19, 2004

The Perfume

As she stood in front of her 5th grade class on the very first day of school, she told the children an untruth. Like most teachers, she looked at her students and said that she loved them all the same. However, that was impossible, because there in the front row, slumped in his seat, was a little boy named Teddy Stoddard. Mrs. Thompson had watched Teddy the year before and noticed that he did not play well with the other children, that his clothes were messy and that he constantly needed a bath. In addition, Teddy could be unpleasant. It got to the point where Mrs. Thompson would actually take delight in marking his papers with a broad red pen, making bold X's and then putting a big "F" at the top of his papers.
At the school where Mrs. Thompson taught, she was required to review each child's past records and she put Teddy's off until last. However when she reviewed his file, she was in for a surprise.
Teddy's first grade teacher wrote, "Teddy is a bright child with a ready laugh. He does his work neatly and has good manners... he is a joy to be around."

His second grade teacher wrote, "Teddy is an excellent student, well liked by his classmates, but he is troubled because his mother has a terminal illness and life at home must be a struggle."
His third grade teacher wrote, "His mother's death has been hard on him. He tries to do his best, but his father doesn't show much interest and his home life will soon affect him if some steps aren't taken."
Teddy's fourth grade teacher wrote, "Teddy is withdrawn and doesn't show much interest in school. He doesn't have many friends and he sometimes sleeps in class."

By now, Mrs. Thompson realized the problem and she was ashamed of herself. She felt even worse when her students brought her Christmas presents, wrapped in beautiful ribbons and bright paper, except for Teddy's. His present was clumsily wrapped in the heavy, brown paper that he got from a grocery bag. Mrs. Thompson took pains to open it in the middle of the other presents. Some of the children started to laugh when she found a rhinestone bracelet with some of the stones missing, and a bottle that was one-quarter full of perfume. But she stifled the children's laughter when she exclaimed how pretty the bracelet was, putting it on, and dabbing some of the perfume on her wrist. Teddy Stoddard stayed after school that day just long enough to say, "Mrs.Thompson, today you smelled just like my Mom used to." After the children left, she cried for at least an hour.

On that very day, she quit teaching reading, writing and arithmetic. Instead, she began to teach children. Mrs. Thompson paid particular attention to Teddy. As she worked with him, his mind seemed to come alive. The more she encouraged him, the faster he responded. By the end of the year, Teddy had become one of the smartest children in the class and, despite her lie that she would love all the children the same, Teddy became one of her "teacher's pets."

A year later, she found a note under her door, from Teddy, telling her that she was still the best teacher he ever had in his whole life.
Six years went by before she got another note from Teddy. He then wrote that he had finished high school, third in his class, and she was still the best teacher he ever had in his whole life.

Four years after that, she got another letter, saying that while things had been tough at times, he'd stayed in school, had stuck with it, and would soon graduate from college with the highest of honors. He assured Mrs. Thompson that she was still the best and favorite teacher he had ever had in his whole life.
Then four more years passed and yet another letter came. This time he explained that after he got his bachelor's degree, he decided to go a little further. The letter explained that she was still the best and favorite teacher he ever had. But now his name was a little longer.... The letter was signed, Theodore F. Stoddard, MD.

The story does not end there. You see, there was yet another letter that spring. Teddy said he had met this girl and was going to be married. He explained that his father had died a couple of years ago and he was wondering if Mrs. Thompson might agree to sit at the wedding in the place that was usually reserved for the mother of the groom. Of course, Mrs. Thompson did. And guess what? She wore that bracelet, the one with several rhinestones missing. Moreover, she made sure she was wearing the perfume that Teddy remembered his mother wearing on their last Christmas together. They hugged each other, and Dr. Stoddard whispered in Mrs. Thompson's ear, "Thank you Mrs. Thompson for believing in me. Thank you so much for making me feel important and showing me that I could make a difference." Mrs. Thompson, with tears in her eyes, whispered back. She said, "Teddy, you have it all wrong. You were the one who taught me that I could make a difference. I didn't know how to teach until I met you."

Sometimes, we thought we are doing favours for other people but the truth perhaps is the other way round. The moral I get from this story is don't shut yourself with your own perception towards something. Don't only see things with your eyes but with your heart too. Don't sentence a people just because of his or her appearance, the surface. There are a lot more things you might appreciate after you give him or her and yourself a chance to get to know each other better.
-Copied from a forwarded mail-
Cheers~~

Saturday, September 18, 2004

天使 Angel

Angel... Angel...
镜子中看见一张陌生的脸 那眼神如此暗淡
笑一笑 牵动苦涩的嘴角
我的寂寞谁知道
像条船在海上漂 北斗星也看不到
谁能够扬起了帆 远远离开这黑潮
Angel... Angel...盼望你在我身边
Angel... Angel...请你抓住我的手
有时候 我想不会有人了解
心里面藏着的痛
我害怕用真心面对这世界 只好越来越沉默
一个人在人海漂 说话的人找不到
谁给我温柔拥抱我 当我感觉心要碎了
Angel... Angel... 盼望你在我身边
Angel... Angel... 是否听见我在呼唤你
能不能告诉孤单疲惫的我 你永远为我守候
Angel... Angel... 请你留在我身边
Angel... Angel... 请你不要放开我的手

-陶吉吉作品-

这是一首我很喜欢的歌,因为共鸣。

Please wisely use $20.

A man came home from work late, tired and irritated,to find his 5-year old son waiting for him at the door.
SON: "Daddy, may I ask you a question?"
DAD: "Yeah sure, what is it?" replied the man.
SON: "Daddy, how much do you make an hour?"
DAD: "That's none of your business. Why do you ask such a thing?" the man said angrily.
SON: "I just want to know. Please tell me, how much do you make an hour?"
DAD: "If you must know, I make $20 an hour."
"Oh," the little boy replied, with his head down. Looking up, he said, "Daddy, may I please borrow $10?"
The father was furious, " If the only reason you asked that is so you can borrow some money to buy a silly toy or some other nonsense, then you march yourself straight to your room and go to bed. Think about why you are being so selfish. I work hard everyday for such this childish behavior."
The little boy quietly went to his room and shut the door. The man sat down and started to get even angrier about the little boy's questions. How dare he ask such questions only to get some money? After about an hour or so, the man had calmed down, and started to think: Maybe there was something he really needed to buy with that $10 and he really didn't ask for money very often. The man went to the door of the little boy's room and opened the door.
"Are you asleep, son?" He asked.
"No daddy, I'm awake," replied the boy.
"I've been thinking, maybe I was too hard on you earlier," said the man.
"It's been a long day and I took out my aggravation on you. Here's the $10 you asked for."
The little boy sat straight up, smiling. "Oh, thank you daddy!" He yelled. Then, reaching under his pillow he pulled out some crumpled up bills. The man, seeing that the boy already had money, started to get angry again. The little boy slowly counted out his money, then looked up at his father.
"Why do you want more money if you already have some?" the father grumbled.
"Because I didn't have enough, but now I do," the little boy replied.
"Daddy, I have $20 now. Can I buy an hour of your time? Please come home early tomorrow. I would like to have dinner with you."
THE MORAL OF THIS STORY : -
Share this story with someone you care.... But even better, share $20 worth of time with someone you love. It's just a short reminder to all of you working so hard in life or is a busy-bee in your life. We should not let time slip through our fingers without having spent some time with those who really matter to us, those close to our hearts. If we die tomorrow, the company that we are working for could easily replace us in a matter of days. But the family & friends we leave behind will feel the loss for the rest of their lives. And come to think of it, we pour ourselves more into work than to our family. An unwise investment indeed!! Don't work too hard...spend some time with your family and friends....do not forget them especially your family although we are busy with our work or our own stuffs.... and you know what's the full word of FAMILY ?
FAMILY = (F)ATHER (A)ND (M)OTHER,(I)(L)OVE (Y)OU
-Copied from a forwarded mail-

A close friend?

Do you ever have such a disappointment? All the way around, you thought one of your, considered as a close, friend know and understand you well. But then there was a day, during a conversation, he said something that seriously questioning the way you would never acted. How would you feel? For me, I called it as a disppointment. A thoroughly disappointment. If he is the one that really know or understand me, he would never have doubt on my attitudes, at least not in the matter. He said he had misread the sentence I typed. In that situation, I should forget the minor mistake of him, am I right? Yet, I am very sorry to say that I cannot accept that as a reason or an excuse. I really cannot help that. It might be an inadvertent mistake but it reveals how I actually look like in his instant mind.
The most disappointing matter in the world is you thought you have something but in fact you don't have any.

Friday, September 17, 2004

青蛙的故事

从前,有一群青蛙组织了一场攀爬比赛。比赛的终点是一个非常高的铁塔的塔顶。 一大群的青蛙围着铁塔看比赛,给它们加油。 比赛开始了。 老实说,群蛙中没有谁相信这些小小的青蛙会到这塔顶,它们都在议论:
‘这太难了!! 它们肯定到不了塔顶! ’
‘它们决不可能成功的,塔太高了!’
听到这些,一只接一只的青蛙开始泄气了,除了那些情绪高涨的几只还在往上爬。 群蛙继续喊着 :
‘这太难了!! 没有谁能爬上顶的! ’
越来越多青蛙累坏了,退出了比赛。但,有一只却还在越爬越高,一点没有放弃的意思。 最后,其他所有的青蛙都退出了比赛,除了一只。 它费了很大的劲,终於成为唯一一只到达塔顶的胜利者。 很自然,其他所有的青蛙都想知道它是怎么成功的。 有一只青蛙跑上前去问那只胜利者,看它哪来那么大的力气跑完全程? 它发现,这只青蛙是个聋子!
这个故事的寓意:
永远不要听信那些习惯消极悲观看问题的人,因为他们只会粉碎你内心最美好的梦想与希望!
总是记住你听到的充满力量的话语,因为所有你听到的或读到的话语会影响你的行为。
所以总是要保持积极、乐观!! 而且,最重要是:
当有人告诉你你的梦想不可能成真时,你要变成‘聋子’,对此充耳不闻! 要总是想着,我一定能做到!!

-摘自网上邮件-

我想把这篇故事送给一位远在英国的朋友,愿她能为自己找到一个塔,并且努力攀爬,别被别人的话语打击而失去了自己的梦想与信心。
慧莹,要活出自我!

Wednesday, September 15, 2004

恐怖心理学

恐怖心理学:赶走恶灵
2004/09/13 14:55:22
●著:富田隆 图:御茶渍苔 (逢星期一刊)

你喜欢相亲结婚吗?你和将来的另一半是自由恋爱而结婚的呢?还是因相亲结婚而结为连理的呢?

啊??恶灵出现了,搞得花子整天神经兮兮的。不赶紧想办法的话,花子会被折磨死的…。那要怎样才能救出花子呢?-->-->
① 听说有一位精通 各国除妖法力高强的大师。只要用电邮联络,就会马上赶过来帮我除妖。
② 啊??我受不了!明早贴出售屋广告单,准备搬离此地。
③本身对这一方面比较敏感,而且读过许多有关灵学的书籍,所以决定收集更多的资料与方法,用自己的力量来与恶灵对抗到底。
④因缘际会的关系,朋友帮我介绍了一位通灵大师,不如先听听大师的意见吧!

回答
① 透过网络就可以交到男朋友,世界上哪有这么幸运的事啊??而且,人是要相处之后才能够知道互相的个性,尤其是感情这档事,更要慢慢的去了解对方的个性,不要一下子就陷进去,小心被骗财骗色哦!
② 虽然你不排斥经由朋友介绍、舞会来认识异性,不过你是一个知道自己要的是什么、什么样的生活才是对自己最好的人,所以最后是会采取随缘的恋爱方式。
③ 一天没有恋爱滋味就会死掉的你,就算是遇到了负心汉,也会死心塌地的为他付出一切,因为你会不断的告诉自己“总有一天会感动他的”。不如试试相亲,说不定上帝会送给你一个爱你一生一世的好男人喔!
④ 你是属于“不在乎曾经拥有,只在乎天长地久”的标准新好太太。只要能遇到好男人,不管是相亲结婚或是自由恋爱结婚都可以接受。

Originally copy from http://www.nanyang.com/index.php?ch=164&pg=755&ac=406845

A new friend

I met a new friend last night. He is my friend's housemate. I met him in MSN messenger. We do not know each other in person. We started chatting while he was using my friend's account. I never thought I would have such kind of deep conversation with him. But we did. He told me what he planned to do to get her girl friend back. He felt deeply regret that he had been taken her for granted and never treat her like how he felt inside. He worried he would spoilt her and she would change. The result was--he lost her.
He is doing his best to WIN her back. That's the word he used. WIN... I don't like the word 'win'. Why did he use the word? He made me feel that he treat that as a game, a battle. The thing he wants from there is victory. Maybe that's not what he really feel, it's just that I have different perception on the word.
We shared and discussed about his plans. I think I am kind of helping him to get the girl back. But then, when I have second thought, I am helping a guy to get someone's girl friend as the girl is with someone now. He said the guy was the third party. I told him, yes, he might be the third party last time but not now. You're the third party now! I can sense that there is nothing can stop him from executing his plan. What I can do is wishing him all the best~~

朋友说

朋友说,为何你总是说一些关于爱的事?
我听后,不明白他们这样说是不想看到我写关于爱的事呢?还是他们觉得我所写的是无聊的东西。
我就是喜欢看那样的文章,我就是喜欢感受作者尝试用文笔所表达的感受。
常有朋友说,那些东西有什么好看,他们所写的东西,我都懂,只是我没写在纸上。
我听后,心里就有了一把声音。既然你认为你也能写出那样的文章,为什么你就不写或没写?
你真的能像别人那样用文笔来表达你自己吗?你所写的能让别人感受得到吗?
如你自己也不能肯定那答案,为什么就不能虚心像别人学习?为什么就不能以一颗平常心来感受一下别人的心情?
我们都习惯用自己的角度去看、衡量、批评别人。。。
你可以说我是个无聊人,你也可以说我是个多愁善感的人,你也可以说我是个感性的人。
无论你怎样说,这就是我。
我们平常已活在充满声音的世界,活在别人的看法下,就让我有一片自己的天空与土地吧。

Please appreciate the person beside you

My friend sent me this. I truly impressed. Wish it will leave something for you too.
http://home.so-net.net.tw/shihchinhuang/mail/eml/nearby.htm

Friday, September 10, 2004

What's your image and reputation?

Hehe... I thought of this while I was on the way walking back from Safeway.
What's my image? What's my reputation? How do I look in the eyes of other people? What do they recall about me? Is that how I want to present to them? (Please bear with me, I am majoring in Public Relations after all...That's part of PR special property. ^^ Actually, there are differences between image and reputation. Just to have a brief introducation here. Image is what you do to present yourself such as hair style and outfit whereas reputation is how people think about you base on your image.)
Let us don't talk about my future working field but something very personal that any one of you may overlooked.

Everyone should have consciously or unconsciously concerned of their image and personal relations within the social circle. And I believe this really bother many people. That's why there are so many authors writing books about how to communicate well with people around you, the effective personal communication skills and so on.
Some people's image is built on his/her smile, laugh, apprearance, outfit, behaviours and etc.
Some are noticed by themselves but some are not.
Let spend few minutes to think and ask yourself about that. You don't need to take it too serious. Just give yourself some laughs just like me.

I suppose my image is made up of many things.
Firstly, my fangs. Hehe... Do you know how vampire or dracula's fangs look like? Yeah... I have a pair of it. Some people has one but I have a pair. Muahahaha...
Secondly, my cunning smile with the fangs. *Please close your eyes and imagine*
Thirdly, my voice. Some of my friends really admire me while we were doing presentation in front of the class. Why? Because I have a voice that really loud enough where a microphone is really a luxury good for me. *Please imagine my laugh*
Fourthly, my brain. Hehee... My brain is full of many devil thoughts and 'yellow' stuff (I am not sure about that but all my friends agree on that).
And now it's about reputation. I have a very unique reputation (this built without my notice and I did not really intent to present that. However, this is what reputation really mean about.) That was told by my friends who really close with me. I guess none of you would never thought of that. If you got it right, please tell me. I will give you a big prize!!!
What's that about then? Part of my reputation is-- *Drums...* I am an alarm. This alarm is not the ordinary alarm. It doesn't buzz on hour and minute basis. But it buzz on monthly basis. Why? It's because of....*Drums....* my menstruation!!! Muahahaha... Can you get it? ^^
When my friends see I eat alot, drink sugar water, cannot walk with my back straight, my facial features not in the 'correct order', always have deep breathes and etc, they will say, 'Wow... time flies... It's another month...' And I will answer them, 'Yes... Have you appreciated your past month? Have you enjoyed your time? Be awared, you are getting elder!!! =p'

What's your image and reputation?

Thursday, September 09, 2004

Expectations

Life is unpredictable I suppose. I reckon that's the reason why we always want to PLAN our life. But then it seems contradicting, isn't it? Unpredicatable VS Plan. No matter what's the right way, it has been a MUST in our society. No one can escape from that. As a ramifications, we always have expectations towards our life. We expect ourselves doing something and at the same time, we expect other people doing things for us too. We expect people will act in certain way. We expect people will do thing as what we wish. We expect almost everything. But the truth is...there is nothing we can be 100 per cent granted like what we wish.

I am the kind of people that really have high expectations on myself and my friends around me. I always expect them to act in certain way. Sadly, it hurts them and myself. Friends always say that I am a strict person and sometimes, they are kind of scared to get close to me. They feel too stress to be with me. I am very glad that they willing to tell me that (though they were forced by me to tell the truth...haha...) At this stage, I am learning to get rid of expectations on other people but I will put expectations on myself still. Hehe... I cannot help on that. I think it's because I'm a an Arian? Haha...

To all my friends, thanks for bearing my stupid ego and I am really glad to have you guys in my life. Feel FREE to remind me if there is anything I should improve. Cheers.

Changed plan

Hmmm... Just got to know that my piano lesson will not start from tomorrow but Saturday. Never mind, I still feel excited. ^^ My dear friends out there, please be patient. I will definetely perform a song for everyone of you if my fingers are not that dumb. Muahaha...


Wish comes true

Hooray!! My wish is coming true at last. I have the chance to learn piano playing start from tomorrow. Hahaha... Feeling extremely excited. I kept on thinking about that even during my lecture just now. I was thinking which song I want to learn, where I can practice and so on.

For those who don't know me, I wish to play piano and perform in front of people since I was a child. I asked my parents to let me go for piano lesson when I was five years old but they never allow. They said there is no future to play piano and it is expensive. Honestly, I was kind of angry at them on that matter. That's my wish but they never grant me. What is wrong with playing piano? Don't they understand how good the feeling is when I can play and listen to the music produced by myself? =( I promise to myself that I will learn that when I can stand on my own. I am not standing on my own though, there is a chance. I would like to thank Poh Hean for offering to be my piano teacher. Poh Hean, I will pay full attention to your class I promise. And I hope you can bear with my dumbness in case my fingers do not perform well. Haha...^^

In addition, thank to Poh Hean for showing me a space where I can freely express my feelings. Just want to tell you that having people reading your 'sky' is a good thing though there may have lots of rumours floating around. We should not worry too much. We are getting less space to express our real thinking and feelings in daily life. That is a very sad thing I suppose. If we cannot show our real thinking and feeelings at here, where else should we go? In conclusion, just be yourself and type out all you want to tell. That is your SKY, a free sky that has no pollution and noise. And I believe that is the reason you can enchant so many fans. Umm... talking about fans... will I have my own fans too? I will wait and see...

Tuesday, September 07, 2004

口是心非

有个朋友问我,你是个口是心非的女生吗?
每个女性都是口是心非的。
口是心非是女性的特征吗?
我听后,老实说,心中有点不愤。
我回他:
我相信‘口是心非’是人性。
不管是男是女,都多多少少会有此特性。
百分百对每个人说真话、心里话的人很难生存在这个社会。
这不但可能伤害自己,也伤害别人。
你说呢?

Monday, September 06, 2004

被爱或爱

今天看了一篇文章,它的出现实在是对准了时机。这是巧合?还是上天真的想给我一些启示?
如果它真的想给我启示的话,它可能会对我彻底的失望。
我不是不明白它所说的,我不是不想珍惜,只是我过不了自己那关。

你觉得被爱幸福呢?还是爱人幸福?你会选择被爱还是爱人?
文中的女主角是一个很受男生欢迎的女生,她的身边从不乏追求者。当中,就有一位男生,即使被她狠狠地拒绝、冷漠对待,他待她还是全心全意,从不放弃,毫无怨言。
女生碍于他不是她所喜欢、想要的类型,持续的拒绝、伤害他。她对他说了很多狠话,也对他要求了他不可能满足到的事,以令他死心。
他终於停止了对她的温柔、关心与嘘寒问暖。而她也找到了她想要的对象。
她发觉,与一个她爱的人生活并不如她所想象那么的幸福,吵架、冷战不时发生。她想起了他。想起了他对她的忍让、爱护。她想,他的女朋友一定很幸福。
她探问他的消息。 他的朋友告诉她说他已去世了。他因为要满足她、令她开心而操劳过渡,发生车祸逝世了。 他临终时还交代他朋友千万不能让她知道,他怕她不开心。
她的眼泪不受控制的落下了,她后悔极了,但后悔也没用了。
你觉得被爱幸福呢?还是爱人幸福?你会选择被爱还是爱人?
她相信每个人的心地都有各自的答案。最重要的是别让自己有如此后悔的机会。

我说相爱最幸福,但,那是最难的。如你现在找到一个你爱他,他又爱你的人,我祈望你会珍惜你所拥有的,非常祈望。
如真的要我从中选一,我选择爱人。即使要我爱得遍体鳞伤,我也愿意。
我不是傻。那为何我不选择被爱?
很多人认为也选择被爱,他们认为那是最幸福、最安全的。
我从来不认为如此。
我很怕、也不想有个人很爱我,但我不爱他。
当他很爱我,对我很好,全心全意爱护我,但我就是不能回应他,不能爱他,不能对他如此好的时候,我会觉得我亏欠了他,这对他根本不公平。他应找到一个值得他爱的人,也能爱他的人。我不能只看他付出而我只享有他的好,我过不了那关。
你能明白吗,那不能回应一个人的爱的愧疚、亏欠感。。。
我宁愿我是那个被拒绝的人,我至少不会那么挣扎。

Sunday, September 05, 2004

彼与此

一个人如连对自己许下的承诺都不能守,又怎能对别人许下承诺?
一个人如对自己没有要求,又怎能对别人有所要求?
人要先做好自己,才能放眼别人。
共勉之。